So far, summer break has not been what I have been expecting coming off one of the most grueling exam weeks I ever had in my college years. For starters, the word "summer" has not applied within the weather here in Toledo for the past few weeks now. It has been wet, dark, and mucky instead of the sunshiny days that I envisioned when I left my apartment and came home.
I'm just praying that the weather gets better for the rest of the summer since I actually want to spend a lot of my time outdoors without the weird weather inhibiting me. So that means more bonfires, playing some ball at the park, and drinking around with friends.
The funny thing is, I won't even be around to see the weather get gradually better (or worse) for the upcoming 3 weeks, since I will be in Korea with the family. So maybe I shouldn't say anything in regards to the weather at all...Sorry Ohio/Michigan people.
I don't know if it is just me and a combination of the bad weather, but I find myself struggling with some old habits and things from the past as I stay inside the house more. Many things that involve the internet where I literally just do anything on here with too many hours than I care to admit. It's a bit sad that it has come to this since I thought I was doing pretty well back when I was at my apartment with zero internet and spending those extra time walking and listening for God. I'm thinking I need that same mindset that allows me to walk with God a lot more clearly than I ever had before. So basically, cutting down on my internet consumption and staying outside more despite the dark weather.
Hopefully my mind can get out of this funk and start focusing on things that really matter. I wish I had a cool Bible verse to post here, but I've been reading the book of Acts lately, and there hasn't been any inspiring verses other than tales of how the first church grew (which is absolutely fascinating). :/
Stay focused friends.
So...
I guess I will use this blog as a way to convey my recent thoughts and to ventilate the things I have felt so far. As I recently quit all types of major social media (Twitter, Facebook, Instagram), I found myself troubled with how much actual thoughts that are trapped inside my head that I would usually share through these social media outlets. Now that I do not have have one, I often let myself wander in my own thoughts and play out what would happen had I shared that to the world, as if it would truly matter to a audience of followers and friends that I had before.
Now someone may say, "Well, is this not a type of social media?" which I would reply, "No."
I am doing this primarily with no expecation of an audience or anyone out there that may care or feign that they give a second thought to whatever I may post. So with this in mind, I definitely have a little bit of leeway to be more of myself and have the freedom to type out whatever that goes on in my big ol' head.
Funny thing is, I have always wanted a blog but always thought it was a waste of time while at the same time, I would be letting time slip away though my fingers with other social media. I would have the constant madness of refreshing every bit of tweet or Instagram photo of my peers without realizing the irony of my prejudice against blogging.
With that being said, I am ready to explore and let my thoughts flow freely through my fingers on this keyboard of mine.
